Mar 31

Lenten Commitments

One of the reasons I decided to take the Religious Studies course at Western was to learn more about other religions.  I felt I had a pretty good handle on Christianity, but I knew little about Judaism and almost nothing about Islam.  I had been exposed to a smattering of Buddhism and The Dao, but nothing of Hinduism.  I saw great gaps in my background that left me feeling like my foundation of belief was “built on sand.”  As I come toward the end of my  third semester, I still feel like I’m on shaky ground at times.  I am currently well into my fifth class and I am realizing I’ve barely scratched the surface.

A second reason for this endeavor is to find links between the major religions of the world.  I firmly believe that there is A God.  Only one, not a different one for each religion.  Only One, who has been given different names in different languages and is seen from various viewpoints, but still is the same being.  I hope to find substantiation for this opinion in my studies.  Some of what I’ve learned about Islam backs up that opinion and has been useful to my quest.

One thing is the injunction to stay mindful of God.  Muslims pray five times a day to remind them to always be mindful of God.  As a Christian, Lent is my mindful time.  I’m not saying that I only practice my faith at this time of year, but it is during Lent that I make a commitment to do, or not do, something that will remind me every day of Jesus’ sacrifice.  Traditionally, this meant giving up some form of food or drink and I still do that.  This year, I am eliminating potatoes from my menus.  Sometimes, it’s easy.  Just filling my plate at dinner without them.  At other times, I must restrain myself from grabbing, just one, french fry from someone else’s fast food meal.  In either case, it is a reminder that I am only asked to make small sacrifices for my faith, not the ultimate sacrifice that Jesus made.

A less traditional commitment is to make a promise to do something.  What thing isn’t as important as the reason for doing it.  It’s just another, more positive, way to stay mindful on our road to Easter.  The commitment “to do” is more difficult for me that the don’t.  I am reminded of the don’t every time I plan a meal.  Remembering the “to do” takes more effort.  We are on the fourth week of Lent.  Every day, I consider the fact that I did not make a real “to do” promise this year.  I thought about several possibilities and dismissed them.  So, my Lenten “to do” has been meditating on Lent.  What it means and why we celebrate it.  I am in belief mode, not action.

In the past, I’ve tried several “practices.”  Reading scripture everyday, praying at a certain time every day, dedicating more time to service, but none of those seemed fitting this year.  This year, I feel more like a Buddhist.  I search within for meaning.  I listen for that “still small voice.”  This year, I reach for God, not somewhere in the “great beyond,” but inside my own heart and mind.

The weather hasn’t been encouraging enough to tempt me to sit under a tree all day as Gautama did on his search for enlightenment.  Just finding a few quiet moments in the nursery school I currently inhabit is a challenge all by itself.  I must admit, that there have been days when I failed.  On those days, I tell myself that I am only human and begin again.

Easter is almost upon us.  It comes, bringing hope and the promise of God’s blessings on us.  I am not sure that Jesus’ death was payment for our sins.  I am afraid we still pay for those ourselves.  But I do think He died to bring us a message of Hope and Forgiveness.  The scripture that says “God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life,” (NAS Bible. John 3:16)  Jesus came knowing He would die for His teachings.  He made that sacrifice so that we could know His message of love and hope.  It is our responsibility to pass it along.

 

 

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Dec 18

Winding Down the Year

Xavier

Xavier

Damion

Damion

Lexie

Lexie

Elaina

Elaina

Emily

Emily

Adrianna

Adrianna

Wow, no posts since Mother’s Day….obviously it is more than a time crunch problem.  I think I’ve had a writer’s block kind of thing going on too.  Anyhow, the year is almost gone and it has been an eventful one.  Three new great-granddaughters have doubled that generational population.  Their siblings are growing up way too fast and I’m sure the new babies will do the same.  The fact that they are the topic of my first paragraph shows where my priorities have been this year.

I finished the Old Testament/Hebrew Scriptures course with an ‘A,’ but it was a bear with assignments every day.  I opted out of the second summer course.  I never took on campus summer courses because they required you to attend class daily.  Apparently, online courses are just as time consuming, so no more of those either.

This past fall I took Islam, Western Civilization to 1648 (a history course), and added photojournalism to my agenda with an introductory course.  Finals are over and grades are posted: a ‘B’ in Islam, an ‘A’ in history, and a ‘C’ in the photography course.  I started out with a Religious Studies major and found the photojournalism program while looking for a minor.  I added it as a second major instead.  I really want to improve my photography skills, but it was difficult to find the time to concentrate on the assignments.  I’m giving it one more semester.  If my grade doesn’t improve, I may decide to drop it and look for a different minor.

In the spring, I’ll be taking the Christianity course I dropped last summer plus the Intro to Religious Studies course I had skipped over and Buddhism on the Religious Studies side along with Intro to Multimedia and Intro to Media Writing on the photojournalism side.  This will be my make or break semester.  If all goes well, I’ll continue the double major.  If not, I’ll be plotting a new path once again.

Somehow, I need to find a way to make room for my writing to interweave itself into babies and school.  That is still my main goal.  I hope the Religious Studies will provide stones for building the foundation of my writing.  The photography is more of a hobby, but an important one.  I think my problem with making it a priority this past semester was the fact that the assignments were topics that didn’t interest me.  I am never going to be an actual photojournalist.  Other than possible illustrations for freelance writing projects, my photographic interests lie mostly with landscape and nature photography.  The only people I would normally photograph intentionally would be my babies or other family members.  Otherwise, people just happen to inhabit the background I am focusing on.GardenOfTheGods

 

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May 12

Breathing….

It’s Mother’s Day. I am being lazy, so here’s a chance to catch up on some posting.  Of course, I went to church this morning and the Baby Boy, aka Damion, went with me.  He is so amazingly good during worship service.  Something I’m sure he’ll outgrow.  After services, we stopped for our usual lunch.  So far, a pretty routine Sunday.  I’ve checked email and Facebook.  Heard from one son, two daughters, and several granddaughters. The baby is asleep and I’m relaxing.  This evening, I’ll be going out to eat with two daughters and a granddaughter.  That has actually become an annual thing.

School is finished.  I made an ‘A’ in Middle Eastern Religions and a ‘B’ in Religions of Asia. Admittedly, I already had a working knowledge of much of the information, but I gained a deeper understanding as well as picking up new information along the way.  I have two summer classes scheduled.  First is The Old Testament/Hebrew Scriptures during May.  It only lasts three weeks so I’m guessing it will require lots of work on a daily basis.  The second is Christianity, which lasts four weeks during the month of July.  I expect both to give me a new perspective on topics I have been familiar with for my whole life.

It looks as though, somewhere in there, I’ll be making a Roadtrip to Charlotte to pick up a grandson who hasn’t quite outgrown “visiting Mamaw” or perhaps to take him home after the visit.  Plans aren’t set in stone yet.

A busy summer doing what I love most.  What more could anyone ask?  Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers I know and those I don’t as well.  It’s the most difficult and rewarding job in the world and there is no ‘retirement.”

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Apr 16

Finding the Bitter Truth

crusadesMy oldest daughter said to me one day a week or so ago, “You know how you reach a point that you think you are pretty well educated?  Then you find out just how ignorant you really are?”  We had both suffered that particular realization that day, on different subjects.  It is a really stunningly humbling experience.  We cruise along, taking classes, reading books, just living.  Then we run against something that should really be common knowledge, but we had never been exposed to it.

The hole in my own education holds all the “dark ages” of Europe and “The Crusades.”  Somehow, I have missed taking any courses related to medieval history.  In various Literature classes, I had read bits and pieces from the time frame, but nothing that gave me a real understanding nor even a basic knowledge.

I discovered this philistinism while reading Jerusalem: One City, Three Faiths by Karen Armstrong.  It is the text being used for my class on Middle Eastern Religions.  The first section was about Judaism and I felt comfortable with most of it.  I won’t claim to be an Old Testament expert, but I have read most of it.  The begats zone me out fairly quickly, but I have a working knowledge.  The second section on early Christianity was disturbing, not because I didn’t know it, but because I’d never looked at it from the outside before.  Some of it isn’t very uplifting.

I had been waiting all semester to get to Islam.  A desire to learn more about this religion that has become such a dominant force in today’s world was the main reason I had enrolled in the class.  I have had Muslim acquaintances and read other books about modern Islam.  I had heard and seen bits and pieces of information in movies and on television, some true, some fictional.  But, I knew little of Islamic history and I didn’t feel I had even a minimal knowledge of what it was.  From things I had read and seen, I had come to the conclusion on my own that ‘Allah’ was simply their word for God just as the Spanish say ‘Dios’ and the French ‘Dieu.’  It frustrated me that most Americans seem to think it means a different God because they use a different word.  Is a horse a different animal because the Arabic language calls it ‘hisan?’

The chapters on Islam are covering the crusades in a way I had never been exposed to before.  I must trust Armstrong’s words.  She was accurate about all other points, although her viewpoint sometimes made me flinch.  Her book was chosen for this class at a respected university.   I could sort of understand the attitude the early Christians displayed toward the Jews.  I didn’t agree with it, but I could see why they felt as they did, especially after centuries of persecution.  Their actions during the crusades, I could not find any way to condone.  I  am not saying that modern Christians deserve to bear the brunt of the sins of the religious leaders and knights who committed those long ago atrocities , but sins they were.  I don’t know why I am so shocked.  I knew about the Inquisition  and the Salem witch trials.  I realize that the Bible has been used as justification for everything from slavery to the current attitude toward gay marriage.  I simply wasn’t prepared for the romanticized Crusades to be a coverup for the invasion of a foreign land and the all out slaughter of people who had done absolutely nothing to deserve it.

I am constantly saddened by the perversion of Jesus’ teachings.  During Lent, my commitment was to attend a special Sunday School class about the Cross & the Resurrection.  It was an in depth look at what those two things mean to us.  I came away wondering why we needed to define them at all.  To my way of thinking, they are simple facts.  Jesus was executed by the method commonly in use at that place and time.  On the morning of the third day, the tomb was empty.  He appeared, alive, to his disciples and other people several times over the next few weeks.  Then He ascended. I don’t need to understand God’s motives for what happened.

Why do we need to dissect it?  Instead we should be concentrating on the real reason He came, to deliver His message.  We should be dissecting His teachings.  That is what’s important about Him, not how or why he died.  In the long run, it doesn’t matter if He gave his life as “payment” for our sins or as an “atonement” to bring us closer to God.  All that matters is “Do Unto Others as You Would Have Them Do to You.”  We simply don’t seem to get it.  I can only take small comfort in knowing that things have improved.  The scorched earth policy of centuries past is deplored today and people who engage in it are called war criminals.  The “more civilized” countries, including those who engaged in the Crusades, try to contain the perpetrators.  Still, we have a long way to go.

In some of my reading this past month, and I can’t remember the source, I came across a concept of heaven that was new to me.  I like it, but I am afraid it means postponing the end of the world for another 2000 years. The gist of it is this:  Jesus’ kingdom isn’t something that will arrive intact.  Mankind is supposed to be building it here on earth.  We are supposed to be learning to live by His teachings, to be making a worldwide kingdom of peace and love where everyone will do what is right because they want to, not to keep from being punished.  When we finally achieve that goal, He will return and rule for all eternity.  Are you ready to build?  Do you think anyone else is trying?

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Mar 01

A Spiritual Journey

Path2We all grow up with a cultural background.  Some will include a heavy religious influence while others will be noticeably lacking in that area. Whether or not it is included in the beginning, sooner or later, religion will touch our lives.  Even the most rabid of atheists have been touched by religion.  Humans in all corners of the world throughout recorded history have searched for a higher power and tried to find ways to explain or connect to it.  Our search for spiritual enlightenment has been equaled only by the expansion of our scientific knowledge and could, at times, be just as destructive.

I was raised with religion.  My family did not just go to church on Sunday; we had devotionals with bible readings and prayers at dinner every night.  It wasn’t a matter of listening as my parents read, spoke and prayed.  As we became old enough to read, we were assigned parts to play.  Mostly these came from the Upper Room or Secret Place booklets that my mother subscribed to, but she would also offer inspirational pieces from other sources when she felt it important.  She believed firmly in “train up a child in the way….” and she practiced it.

My brothers and I grew up with God as a personal entity with whom we interacted daily.   There was no time when we were suddenly “saved.”  We knew Jesus as a “personal savior” long before we understood what that meant.   Like most children, we assumed that our lifestyle was normal for everyone.  It wasn’t until long after I was grown, that I came to realize there were people in the world who followed a different path or who didn’t even Believe at all.

As a young adult, with three children and 6 years of marriage behind me, I questioned my parents’ teachings.  I wondered if the human race was outgrowing the need to believe.  Had science answered the mysteries that we used to attribute to God?  There had certainly been no new prophets for a very long time.  Were the cynics who proclaimed “God is dead!” correct?   Quite frankly, the idea terrorized me.  To me, that meant that there would be no order in creation.  The whole of human existence would be chaotic, random, with no “meaning.”  I rejected the concept of no “higher power” and went happily back to church.  Path1

A few years later, as my first marriage was breaking up, I sat in my kitchen and experienced that chaos inside myself.  It felt as though my mind was spinning apart.  I feared for my sanity and prayed fervently for help.  With the very next breath, calm descended.  I was filled with the most joyous peace I had ever known.  Needless to say, I considered it an answer to my prayer.  Others might explain it psychologically, but to me the science of it didn’t matter.  I had cried out and gotten an answer.  The methodology of it was not important.  I felt that I had been “Born Again” and I accepted it gratefully.

In the intervening years, there have been times when I have drifted away from the church, but never from my faith.  Even at the lowest points in my life, I have always felt the Presence and known I could call on it.   I am not perfect, only trying to do the best I can within the circumstances.  Sometimes I fall short, but I always get back up and try again.  My mantra is “You haven’t failed until you stop trying.”

Lately, I have been bothered by the fact that people seem to think everyone with different traditions or names for God is worshiping someone different.  I know this is not true of Jews, Christians and Muslims.  Whatever we call Him: YHWH, I am, Allah, Lord, Father….She is still the same powerful being that loves us and wants to be loved in return.

If I subscribe to the theory that there is only one God and we are all talking about the same Supreme Being, then I need to go further than the three core religions.  I need to be able to include Hindus, Buddhists, Native Americans, Taoists…everyone who searches for the Mysteries.  Not the ones that can be proved with Science, but the inner ones that govern the growth of the soul and the possibilities of an afterlife.  I realize there are too many to count.  I can’t possibly learn about all of them.  I can only research the primary ones that are accepted by large numbers of people.

Path3So, this year I embark upon that search.  So far, this semester, one class is covering Judaism, Christianity and Islam, a second one has covered a general overview of Hinduism and begun the study of Buddhism.  Later it will look at Confucianism and Daoism.  Don’t misunderstand.  I do not seek to change my religion or expect to fully understand other traditions and cultures through a couple of classes.

I simply want to synchronize things inside my own head.  When I tell people: “There’s only one God.  We all worship Him/Her in our own way, building our own personal relationship to the Almighty One.  We simply use different names, just as we call our mothers and fathers by different words in different languages or cultures.” I want to have more authority behind my statement than my own small opinion.  So, I am searching.  For parallels, similarities, a way to merge it all together in my soul.

I don’t expect to change the world.  I have never felt the need to spread my beliefs into the world.  I simply want to be able to grasp a greater meaning to the concept of “God” than what I now have.  As I grow close to the day when I will meet Force face to face, I need to know that I have done all I can to prepare myself.

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